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Little tiff Today I admitted to Mark that I want to meet his friends and am getting impatient waiting. It's about time I met them, and I know I keep saying it, but now I just want to meet and get along with them all. It seems daft but I want to feel part of more than just 'Mark... and his girlfriend', I want it to be 'Claire and Mark'. I want to be a COUPLE. I'd love to feel be part of this group of friends, to gossip and talk to one another. Mark has a friend who is married and they are on the verge of having a baby, not too sure when the due date is but I think sometime soon if she hasn't had it already. It would be nice to think that we could go round and see the little one when the time is right, or if they had it christened or anything that we would go (as a couple) and be there. You know, do normal coupley settling down things. Do I sound stupid? We had a few words again this evening, but we ended on a good note and hopefully are no longer upset with each other. He snapped a little after working a 14 hour day - understandable - but I took the chance to say how I feel. That he constantly remarks on my faults but never my good qualities. He apologised and everything is fine now, but at least I got my feelings heard. Our relationship isn't a healthy one at the minute, we constantly bicker and argue, but I know deep down we are both really trying. I think when next weekend rolls around and I am with him that we will have a talk and clear things up. Then maybe we can get back to normal. |