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Facing up to it Feeling pretty good at the moment. Today I applied for a further 2 jobs, both are for an administration assistant role. One is situated about 15-20 minutes away and the other is near where I worked previously as a receptionist. I have these 2 jobs plus the others I have already applied for to talk about at my meeting with the Job Centre tomorrow. I feel I'm getting somewhere and really trying my best to get a job. I don't feel like I'm letting myself down, and just because I haven't yet heard anything back from any of these places doesn't mean anything. Many offices are only just getting back to the usual daily grind of work since the New Year and so I don't expect too much. Ideally I'd like to have an interview and obviously get the job, for one of the first 4 I applied to. It was in a similar role to the above jobs and only about 10 minutes drive from where I live. The money is pretty good, it's within an environment that I now understand and have worked in for a good 18 months. Plus the site is huge and the complex has amenities such as a gym, swimming pool etc all for the staff! I'm not getting my hopes up on this and I know I most probaly won't even get an interview. Tomorrow is going to be a pretty big day for me. I'm going to meet the receptionist for the first time since everything happened. Meeting her is something I'm worried about and fear, even though I have already met Adam since and that never bothered me. There was competition between the receptionist and I and she won, I lost. I think deep down that I will always hold something against her, and meeting her tomorrow will determine that. It most probably won't be as bad as I'm thinking, I hope her daughter isn't there too, it will be hard enough to force a smile and make conversation as it is. As I am meeting her in the morning I have already decided I am not letting on that I have a meeting with the Job Centre later on in the afternoon. I'm just going to act casual and mention that I haven't started looking for jobs yet, that I am waiting for next week to arrive and for everyone to be in their usual routines for work. She will just make a big deal out of it and try to help but I already have more than enough support from my family and Mark. |