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Not my cup of tea The interview went well today, although I don't think I will be accepting the job if it is offered to me. First off, the meeting at the recruitment agency was fine. Filling in the forms and writing my name and address 3 times took longer than the actual meeting. No jobs are currently available on their books other than the one I was having the interview with. Still, I'm on the books and this is a step forward towards a job. My dad and I took a trip to the local Tesco and walked around the new upstairs bit full of clothes and tv's. We had a quick drink before heading off to the company and straight in to the interview. I arrived 10 minutes early, good impression, and then had to wait a further 20 minutes past the alloted time for my interview. Apparently she was caught up on the phone, I reckon she came from the canteen as she had baked beans caked around her mouth! She seemed quite posh and snotty with me and the more I spoke the more conscious I became of my voice, which suddenly sounded very East-End "Cor blimey Gov'ner" with a bit of Vicky Pollard thrown in. To me I sounded completely common and rough. Coming from an office where I could swear and be as loud as I wanted, everything was flip reversed and silent and awkward to me. The HR Woman asked me the usual questions; previous work experience, strengths, weaknesses, goals. She then told me about the job I had applied for. Everything seemed so much more detailed for me and something I didn't have the experience for. I felt very uncomfortable. They have asked me to do some computer tests tomorrow with the first recruitment agency, and they are planned for tomorrow morning, but I don't think I want the job. Apparently the company is pretty impressed with me and keen to go further if these tests prove I'm worthy of the position, but it all means nothing to me. I didn't think it was my type of place or job at all. I felt out of depth and so uneasy. I can't see myself working there. If they called up and said the position had been given to another applicant I wouldn't be upset or disappointed. I know realistically this is also due to me liking the other job nearer me, which I still haven't heard back from. (I emailed them this afternoon and had to re-submit my CV.) But the other reasons still apply. I don't want to throw myself in to a job just because I'm unemployed, when I know there is a likely possibility that I won't like it at all. I'll be unhappy and sick and try and get as much time off as possible. I know what I'm like. I'm fortunate enough to have the finances to say no to this job and keep looking around. I'll use this interview as a learning curve and practice for further interviews. I hope I'm not making a big mistake and that nothing else will come along. I'm praying I will still get other interviews! I think you know when you go to an interview whether you like the people, the sound of the job and could see yourself working there. None of this applied to me. Why make myself suffer and make the agency look stupid when I already know I won't like it? My family and Mark are all behind me and supporting me. They understand my decision and haven't tried to push me any further. They've all said I don't seem keen or excited by the possibility of working there. Why torture myself any further than necessary? Plans for this week so far are to do the computer tests tomorrow morning, check daily for new jobs on the Job Centre website and on Wednesday I am meeting the receptionist for lunch. We'll only be popping to the local pub for a packet of crisps and a coke in her 30 minutes break but we'll be able to talk and hopefully it won't all be about work. |