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Disappointment I got a letter today from one of the jobs I applied for at the beginning of the year. One which is based near where I used to work. It's only for an admin assistant role but for money that I was already on. The letter is wanting to set up a telephone interview with me on Tuesday 23rd at 2.30pm. Fine by me, apart from the fact I will actually be in the Job Centre for my two-week review. I tried calling the woman who sent the letter but she wasn't in the office at the time, so I left a message to ask her to call me. Did she? No. I'll call again on Monday. I still haven't heard from the company that was really keen on me, the one I had the interview with on Monday. I'd have thought if they were that desperate for me they would have spoke to my agency by now. Oh well. I also emailed once again the other recruitment agency that are dealing with the job I'd really really like, but no reply. What is it with people and never replying to me? Talking about recruitment agencies, I've got yet another meeting with yet another agency on Wednesday afternoon next week, just to sign on with them. After this I'm finished with getting on the books of the agencies. I have more than enough to deal with already. Oh, I also sent my CV to another company in the building industry only a few minutes drive from my house, so we will see how that goes. Most of this afternoon was filled with looking at all of my entries last year in my diet diary, the diary that doesn't get much use for actual weight loss, just gains. I feel really bad, guilty, ashamed. The amount of times I restarted my exercising only to quit after a few days or so, how embarrassing. I have no drive, no push, no commitment to it. It was really obvious reading all of the entries that I just couldn't do it and that I was putting myself through the torture knowing full well I wasn't going to finish with the results I wanted. It made me realise that I never really do put my mind to anything, I never actually go through with anything, it's all just talk on my part. I have ideas but never implement them. I fail once and it is the end of the world for me. I can never see anything through. It showed me for the kind of person I really am, someone that constantly says things and never means them, that tries, fails and then gives up. I am so disappointed with me. |