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Unemployment sucks I have been a very busy girl today and my phone hasn't stopped ringing. It's been all my recruitment agencies checking I'm still wanting work, telling me about jobs, arranging interviews only to cancel them half an hour later and then ring up again and say the interview is once again on. Oh and a call from Mark too. On Friday I am travelling to On Tuesday 20 minutes after my Job Centre meeting I have an interview with a company in the town I don't really want to work in, but beggars can't be chosers. I'm not really looking forward to it because I really want to work in the town I live. I've applied for plenty of jobs here just none want me. Their loss. Sister is not very happy I have another interview. Heaven forbid I may just get a job and once again be earning some dosh and be able to buy things she can only dream of. She has been like this ever since my first job and has only been happy if I've been out of work, but the happiness soon disappears when she realises I've saved up so much money I can look after myself and don't rely on others. Jealousy, such a terrible thing. I'm ready. Now. Yes, I'm ready. I am looking forward to eventually getting another job, making new friends and learning new skills. I've spent more than enough time in the company of my sister and I want out. It isn't until I spend a weekend with Mark that I realise how tense I am after spending time with her. I go out of my door with my shoulders around my ears and come back relaxed and refreshed to start another gruelling few weeks with her. Not only this but I'm missing talking to others socially, keeping busy with my work and just generally being indepenant. At the moment I don't really live, I just survive. I don't do anything without her knowing or agreeing that it is a good idea. She knows my every move and I hate it. I'm 23 for crying out loud and I can't even breathe without her knowing. I've never been the type of girl to go out with friends of a night and come home when I want, but if I did I wouldn't want her knowing everything. I can't keep anything secret, it's like she is my stalker. When are the days going to arrive that I live without her breathing down my neck and telling me what to do? I want to be my own person. I can feel my back hunching as I type this and get annoyed with her. Don't get me wrong, I love her to bits but I just wish she didn't control so much of my life, or make me think she does. It's like I'm wrapped around her little finger or that I'm her puppet and does anything she wants me to. Argh. I hate this. Does anyone know anything about online courses where I can learn business administration and/or IT skills without actually having to go anywhere? I'm lazy see, and just really can't be arsed with actually going to a college. I've been trying to search for a reputable company that does the courses I am looking for but then I got bored, gave up and went and played a game :D |