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Tears and tantrums What a week! I am both physcially and emotionally drained, I've been sleeping really badly and today has just been horrible. I've been very sensitive and got quite a bit upset today. Not good. So Monday came round and Part-Timer came in at her usual time. She fucked around a bit, making a cup of tea and putting her carrier bag in the loos. (No one knows why she does this, but everyday she puts a jam-pakcked full bag in the toilet and collects it when she leaves. We don't know what she keeps in it!) After sitting at her desk for all of 5 minutes she got up and went out, and us thinking she'd gone to the toilet ignored her. Turns out she was on the landing of our office for well over an hour crying her heart out and in hysteria and no one knew why. We let her go about her business and cry about whatever was wrong. We didn't feel we could go and speak to her or calm her down or anything so we just let her get on with it. After 90 minutes she did eventually come and sit back down and then barely spoke a word to anyone, especially the admin lot. Tuesday she didn't come in, but we were however told by her dad (a boss) that she was having problems at home and at work and that she was having a day off. Fine. We still didn't know what the problem was, but that something was going to have to be done. Wednesday she came in and had a very long meeting with one of the partners. She went in the office very flushed and flustered, all embarrassed and red and she probably didn't calm down until well after she'd left for the day. Whilst I was on lunch she also had a chat with the Office Manager. I ended up sitting outside the office for 30 minutes after coming back from lunch because they were still chatting and I couldn't get to my desk. Turns out Part-Timer had some sort of anxiety attack on the Monday and didn't know what to do or who to turn to so she battled it by herself. She isn't confident and needs a lot of compliments and attention and basically to have her hand held whilst she does her job. We just don't have the time to watch her every move and tell her she is doing great. Grr. On Thursday we had an admin meeting, where me and Receptionist just basically let the OM do all the talking. She told P-T that some people resent her and feel she is a favoured employee because of the daddy connection, that she gets all the school holidays off and bascially can walk in to the office fart-arse about and not do anything useful then go home and still know she will get paid and never get the sack. It's just not fair on us "normal" employees. She was also told that she has to decide if she is going to become a proper member of the admin team and take control of jobs or if she will just do what she has been doing and not have any responsibilites. That she will feel left out of some of our conversations because she sin't there all the time and short of writing a daily list for her we can't do anything about it. You never know, she may have actually understood all of this and taken it all in. I don't think it will make any difference, and from what I've heard about her this will be a recurring problem in another 3 months times. I noticed in our informal meeting she did take a few notes for her husband, she wrote down about the favoured employee and about a job I'm doing. How are these helpful?! She went home to speak to her hubby about what she should do - he seems one of those men that controls every part of her life even down to her lipstick colour. I guess we will have to wait until monday and see how things turn out and what/if she has decided anything. Today though, I was at my most sensitive. The OM and Receptionist have started making suggestions to me about my hair and that they think I'd look better with it a bit shorter. Currently my longest layers come to the middle of my back and I have a few shorter layers. Recently they've mentioned that having it around my shoulders would look good, so they think. Today though, probably meant in a jokey way (maybe) but the OM said I look like I have hair extensions. I pretended to take offence to it and had a joke and laugh about it, but then the Receptionist came in and was told about it. She just agreed and said, yep they were bad extensions at that! Now since these comments I've started wondering if my hair does look that awful and scraggy and rough. I straighten it every day and try to do as much to it as I can but now I just feel like crap. I obviously look bad. These people are ones that joke about things when they really mean it, so I'm all paranoid now. I know I went quiet at work when I started to work myself up in a frenzy and then when I got home I had a little cry. I think I've decided to have my hair cut and tidied up, so I'll probably have a chunk cut off to my shoulders. It's going to be quite a lot that gets the snip though and it won't be for another 3 weeks. Am I just giving in though? |